So Scared I Can't Look Away

by Jamie
(houston)

I have a serious problem. Since I was a child I have always loved horror movies even though they sometimes scare me or freak me out. It wasn't a "problem" until the 8 films to die for came out in 2006. I basically flourished into my own and had my husband (then boyfriend) watching Horror films every weekend.

After a while he said 'no more', and started complaining about me watching them.

It doesn't stop there, I am also missing Ghost hunters and others of the like. Now with him working nights I see it as an opportunity to sneak films.

I know that I should not watch them. I'm home alone and every sound, creak and my imagination is scaring me so bad. I'm constantly looking at the stairs. I keep two lights on at all times (one up stairs and one downstairs). Seriously I'm scared to almost be here in the house, and I can't sleep till my husband gets home. But still, I enjoy watching them.

I've done a little better and cut some of the horror out, especially the ones that really freak me out like the films with zombies, bugs, aliens and Monsters/Murderers breaking into homes. And I just signed up for net flicks.

Should I stop and seek help?

On the bright side horror movies have become sort of a "survival guide". I'm always by the phone and cell phone when I'm alone. Windows and doors are always locked. No I'm not that paranoid, am I? I'm cautious right?

I seriously need a dog or something.